I am Isolated.....

It's 4 a.m.
And I'm outside
Thinking of all the unwise things I’ve done
If I could take them back
You know I would
You know I would change everything
Even me
Even this emotions inside me
That I have for you

But the upside is that I’m cold
I’ll just ram you away
I’ll try and disregard you
But there are always obstacles to everything

What the fuck is wrong with me?
Why do I see this as a curse and not a blessing?
Is it because I don't want to push you away
I don't want to forget you
and that I care?
Is it because I'm so tired of being isolated?
But I know I always will....

Who Is He?

Who Is He

Torn to pieces, can't see straight
Nothing to do but sit and wait
Just needs a place to be on his own
He’s not allowed to be alone
Nowhere to collect his mind and soul
He’s in one piece but can't feel whole
Everyone asks him what is wrong
Despite his efforts to remain strong
Bleeds to know he’s still alive
A boy is struggling to survive
Holding on because suicide's a sin
He tries and tries but just can't win
Music gets him through the days
Worlds shut off when songs begin to play
It hurts to know he has a past
He slowly lapsing into black
Everything still sounds the same
Fucking world gift-wrapped in pain
How do you fix a "broken" heart
When it was broken from the start?
Expelling evil left and right
Never knows who's winning the fight
Picks himself up and wipes his tears
Mends his wounds and drowns his fears
Invisible soldier, weak with love
Prays for help from someone up above
Trying to find a painless way

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A depressing, heavy, sick, rejected, dying, bruised, and battered feeling. The heart of a young girl bursting with the weight of the cruel world around her. The world that she turned to for comfort when she needed it. No one would help her or listen to her. Her heart and soul was falling apart bit by bit and I had not done anything to help.
She felt alone, although there were people all around her. She felt as if there was no one to talk, that she had no true friends. She talked to God, the only one who seemed to understand and take the time to listen to her. More often than not, her emotions were bundled up inside. After all the sadness, she still had a glimmer of hope for her life. It has to get better, she would tell herself. She looked at me when all seemed lost and I could always see a glimmer of hope, but as I looked harder, it began to fade quickly, rapidly as if I were the only hope she had and I abandoned her. But that’s not the way it was. I tried to help her. I tried to reach out to her, but she refused. We had problems.
She knew she was young and that she didn’t know much about the world. Then again, she felt as if she have seen everything and knew the world could be cruel and heartless. We didn’t help any to make her change her mind. I know she heard us in the halls rambling on about her and how everything about her was wrong. Yes, I admit I did that, but that was before I got to know her. We gave but took so much away. In her eyes, this the beginning of the end.

Bitterness

Born In Lust, Gone In Dust.

FUCK YOU BITCH

TO PINK,
It never came to be like the perfect thing for you and me, unlike what I thought. if it was the perfect thing for u and me, u wud never have left me like this, by just stating that u never had any feelings of love towards me, ah damn :@ ! its so fuckin ironic after what I ‘ve pictured u to be. Remember our feelings were so mutual those days. But…. Fu*ck ….what did happen to that perfect romance… we created..? did it vanish into fuckin thin air ? yes yes…. Oh yes why do u deny it…? WHY? Bitch… Why do u now say tht it was not real love.. ur fuckin lies … hell.. it is indeed funny that a moment can change ur life, like how u fuckin changed ur life and broke ma heart… and its more nonsensical that u don’t want to face… what is wrong or right…? I have lost ma fucking faith that true love exist (FUCK LOVE YA)… well, u have fuckin undeniably proven to me that love wasn’t meant to be between us… u act like as if u barely knw me !!! Fuck u bitch… u never take ur damn mobile wen I call or u… give those damn bullshit excuses… WHY WHY da Fu*k u did that ??? to me… what was the fuckin reason… for u to create intentionally a deceptive love towards me?? NOW u say that u have found a “serious” love… FUCK FUCK….Which u will never doubt…. Wat da HELL was HIS magic :@.... ??? WHAT was my fucking crime…? Aaah aaah again ur ridiculous bullshit excuses “I never had any feelings for u…. I don’t actually love U GREEEN u are… SHUT THE FUCK UP BITCH YOU CRAZY WHORE… :@
At the start u said that we were meant to be in each others arms.. now u fucking telling me that u never love me … hell….hell hell fuckin hell :@.... Get lost with Your So called TRUE LOVE....

ROT IN PEACE - GREEN MAN

Dont Go......

Where is my Love Where is my hope Where is my only Reason To Live

Hello Again

I'm right beside you
Yet I'm far away
I'm speechless around you
Yet there's so much to say
I'm in love with you
Yet I hate your guts
I'm totally sane
Yet I'm going nuts
I'm so fat
Yet I don't eat at all
I'm perfectly balanced
Yet I'm about to fall
I'm sure were meant for eachother
Yet you're wrong for me
I'm no longer in a cage
Yet I'm still not free
I'm so alive
Yet I feel so dead
I'm deaf to your harsh words
Yet I heard what you said
I'm perfectly happy
Yet I shed a tear
I'm a born leader
Yet I'm always in the rear
I'm brutally honest
Yet I speak only lies
I'm being myself
Yet I'm in a disguise
I'm dead silent
Yet I'm obnoxiously loud
I'm all alone
Yet I'm in a large crowd
I'm wide awake
Yet I'm dreaming of you
I'm not gonna beg to have you back
Yet there's nothing I wouldn't do

Source : Jack Rippers Blog