I am Isolated.....

It's 4 a.m.
And I'm outside
Thinking of all the unwise things I’ve done
If I could take them back
You know I would
You know I would change everything
Even me
Even this emotions inside me
That I have for you

But the upside is that I’m cold
I’ll just ram you away
I’ll try and disregard you
But there are always obstacles to everything

What the fuck is wrong with me?
Why do I see this as a curse and not a blessing?
Is it because I don't want to push you away
I don't want to forget you
and that I care?
Is it because I'm so tired of being isolated?
But I know I always will....

Who Is He?

Who Is He

Torn to pieces, can't see straight
Nothing to do but sit and wait
Just needs a place to be on his own
He’s not allowed to be alone
Nowhere to collect his mind and soul
He’s in one piece but can't feel whole
Everyone asks him what is wrong
Despite his efforts to remain strong
Bleeds to know he’s still alive
A boy is struggling to survive
Holding on because suicide's a sin
He tries and tries but just can't win
Music gets him through the days
Worlds shut off when songs begin to play
It hurts to know he has a past
He slowly lapsing into black
Everything still sounds the same
Fucking world gift-wrapped in pain
How do you fix a "broken" heart
When it was broken from the start?
Expelling evil left and right
Never knows who's winning the fight
Picks himself up and wipes his tears
Mends his wounds and drowns his fears
Invisible soldier, weak with love
Prays for help from someone up above
Trying to find a painless way